oh final exam

life was so hard kan?? lagi2 kalau kita x de sgt kawan..aku bukan xde kawan tp ssh nk jumpa kawan baik yang sanngup dengar and tahan ngn perangai kita nih.. aku ade je kwn2 yg mcm ni tp aku lak tinggal dorang so padan la ngn muka aku.. aku datang kt negeri pulau mutiara ni dengan harapan aku dapat kwn baru n kalau boleyh better dr kwn2 aku sebelum ni.. tp... yg ade nye sume nk backstab aku.. tensen tol.. tp xpe aku ttp bersyukur kerana masih ade kawan.. kawan mmg penting kan?? aku cukup xske kalau ade org ckp aku xreti cari kawan.. aku kwn ngn sume okeyh! nk gadoh ssh kot.. tp kalau dh org backstab kita xkn nk diam.. aku jenis pendiam?? cari reen lain ah kan.. nk kwn baik!! huwaa.. dulu aku ade kawan baik yg sgt2 baik tp skng da jadi husband... adeh!


lagi 2 hari final exam.. bermula ngn paper fizik.. napela aku x ske n xleh sgt nk go on ngn subject berjudul fizik ini?? ssh laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
kalau fail kene repeat. kalau kene repeat kene blaja lagi.. dh la ni last sem aku blaja fizik. cene chemical engineering boleyh ade fizik nih?? xpaham la aku.. ssh3!


nk truskan study tp da x de mood n otak aku dh super saturated kot.. rindu giler kt epul. pg td kua ngn die.. pg breakfast ngn pg pejabat pos amek barang mak pos.. tp tu ah, pg2 jumpa mane best so aku pon balik ah awl.. td ptg nk kua kalau boleyh tp die tu buat2 x paham je. org nk ajak kua.. tp die wat buduh lak.. yelaa kena paham la die penat.. tp uwaa.. rindu kot.. xpuas gile jumpa pg td.. heh!!


satu tabiat aku ni.. awatla aku ni ske jeles xbertempat nih?? baca blog belen2 die pon leyh jeles.. mu bodo ah reen! hahaha ngeng**

i may not be able to update my blog for a while sbb nye exam la..
k laa... out3!!

epy birthday reen

today is 23 april 2009.so genapla aku 19 thun... bapak tua!! tp xpe.. aku nk dewasa cepat sbb aku nk kawen cepat... n2 aku nk cepat abeh blaja so tht aku nk tanggung mak aku. so aku sgt tunggu tarikh ni, n i was expected yg org tersayang akan jadi org pertama wishing me coz this is the date where i born into this beutiful world n in this world lah i know n i have a lot of memories xkira la pahit mahupon manis..

setiap thun mmg i wait n wait n wait n i hope this year i had a very meaningful birthday sbb this year saya telah jatuh cnta dengn jejaka yg saya cari n tunggu2 selama ni n selama ni setiap thun saya juga berharap agar die la org pertama yg akan wish to me.. i dont even hope for a big, expensive, wonderful birthday present pon but just wish me so tht people remember when i was born.. hopeless??? maybe.. yg pasti kawan2 baik aku akan jadi org pertama yg akan wish, happy to hae friends like u guys.. thnks noor putri aleya tikah yaya..

die?? sedikit terasa sbb maybe aku tunggu sgt kot but then.. maybe die lupa kot.. xpela lagipon esok die ade paper.. apela sgt tarikh ini walaupon aku mmg mementingkan tarikh ni pon.. xpe3!! think positif k reen!

semenjak aku datang sini, macam2 jadi kat aku ngn die.. bile aku mengadu je mesti die akan suruh aku balik shah alam balik. aku berharap yg die akan bagi kata2 semangat yg boley buat aku stay kt sini tp balik2 die ckp aku lagi seksa kt sini sbb die n balik la balik kt sane.. ya allah.. thts not what i want him to say tp sape la aku nk kontrol segala pergerakan die.. aku mmg sedikit mengongkong die sbb aku tahu sume past die n aku xnk die kembali ke jalan tu bukan sbb aku x pecaya die tp die slalu je ckp aku nk samakan die ngn lelaki yg lain.. xboley ke die paham.. aku taw die pon da totally berubah sbb aku tp kenapa nk selalu sebut.. macam x ikhlas je berubah n mcm terpaksa.. kadang2 aku mengaku aku xleyh nk paham die tp tu la.. aku nk hubungn aku kekal so aku kene la cube memahamkan keadaan n cuba sedaya aku untuk trus kekal.. oh tuhan, bantula aku...

dulu.. walaupon die ade masalah skalipon mesti die dengar jugak masalah aku.. skng sampai hati die kuarkan ayat 'awk igt awk sorg ade masalah'?? ya allah... x suke ke die aku ngadu masalah aku?? xpelaa.. i learn sumthing lagi on this nite,..

my first valentine.. jadi cm 'tu' n my birthday pon jadi cmni.. mmg org yg kita sayang selalu buat kita cmni ke?? org lain pon cm aku jugak ke??

xpela aku x salahkan mende ni jadi arini.. lagipon skang ni exam week.. so xpela thun ni berkorban sket xpayah sambut on this date tp tu la.. sedikit terasa di hati aku yg sensitif ini.. sedikit ke?? datang sini aku berkorban sepenuhnye just nk dekat ngn die tp aku rase hati aku lagi jauh ngn die... xpenah aku ase sakit hti kat die padahal dh 3 thun kitorg kawan... tp dtg sini selalu je hati aku ni sakit.. sakit melihat telatah die yang x penah dapat di jangka. sakit jugak kerana aku terpaksa berkorban melepaskan rmi kawan2 yg seangkatan yg ssh sama2 sng sama2 tp di sbb kan berlainan jantina aku terpaksa menjarakkan diri aku ngn mereka demi menjaga hati seorg insan yg amat aku sayang.. aku thu die pon cm tu la aku pon sanggp berkorban mcm ni.. knp aku dan die sgt senang terasa antara satu sama lain?? sbb terlalu sayang ke cmne?? aku sendiri x dapat jawab..

kat sini jugak la aku terkawan ngn kwan yg telah menikam aku dari belakang.. aku melayan die cm aku layan kwn2 baik aku yg aku dh anggap seperti adik beradik aku tp die telah menikam aku sampai macam ni skali n bile ditegur sikit pon x dapat menerima teguran aku.. all this while die dah racun kan pemikiran aku supaya aku x suke yaya padahal aku xpenah knl pon pompuan ni.. tp disbbkan die aku da x ske yaya tu at first n aku pon cm ade gak ah kutuk2 die.. tp skang byk benda dh aku thu dh aku dengar dr rmi org.. byk sgt die tipu aku.. yg paling aku menyesal aku knl kan die ngn org yg paling aku syg.. sampai die cuba nk rmpas dari aku.. oh no! aku x kan biarkan.. aku igt bile aku ngadu kt die n aku cm marah2 die nk la backup aku ke or da xnk kawan ngn si pompuan jalang tu ke tp boley plak die ckp hurmm tgk la dulu.. betapa luluh jatuh tersungkur jantung aku dengar.. xpe! think positive ok!! kesian si yaya.. jahat punye pompuan! neraka la tempat kaw...

xpela.. hari ni hari aku, i tot i wanna have fun tp... berendam air mata jelaa malam ni..

xpe2 think positive!! ape2 pon.. happy birthday reen!! semoga cepat matang dan membesar dengan sehat!! muahh.. cyg kamu!!

fly fm flirty at 10.30

hey3.. just now hafiz from fly.fm had called me hahaha...
alaa yg flirty at 10.30 tuh.. hahah epul terkena.. ngeh3...
act i request it da two weeks ago.. x sngka plak die nk kol arini..
n kebetulan epul with me.. duh** seb bek menjadi eventhough epul berpeluh2 menjawab soalan hafiz.. hahaha

after tht he said i sweet sbb buat sume ni.. so im going out dating esok..
hahahah
then i got so many sms from frens yg tny.. eyh reen u ke on air kt fly fm td??
i request lagu jugak kt fly td.. decode from paramore..huhuhu
for those yg ase nk buat jugak just request kt fly fm.com.my okeyh...
hurmm... hahaha

so i heppy arini n i masak kt my hbby.. masak spagethi ( die yg msak sebeno nye, sy tulun saje.. hee)

just came back

im just going back from shah alam... x lepas lagi rindu kt kwn2 sebenarnye..
mase pg tu my bus act pukul 9.30.. all my frens dh bgn except me n bile 8.45 i bgn tgk2 dh lambat okeyh... then i pon bersiap cm owg gile.. dorg x kejut i sbb xnk bg i balik.. wut the..... huh~~ korg2... i know la u love me bebeh.. i love you too okeyh... seronok dpt kwn yg cm dorg tp yela.. mnusia bukan sempurna,.. ade gak sumthing annoyed me when with them... xpelaa i just assume they all berguraw eventhough no'or pon perasaan sume nih... xpe2.. keep it up bebeh... then semalam aroun d 3pm i arrived kt butterworth.. br jauh kulihat seorng mamat bert-shirt ungu dan berseluar pendek dengn boyan die sume cukup... menunggu aku dengan penuh sbr nye,... aku dpt lihat wajah kerinduan kesangapan kegumbiraan yg x terkata dan mcm2 lagi dr raut wajah comel nye... huh~~ rindu aku terlepas jua.. 2 ari berpisah baru aku sedar aku x leh jauh dr dia...

n2 nk crita jugak pasal my ex yg sengal gile babi... i gi um taw just sbb nk jumpa farah... n jumpa la die gak alang2.. n die boleyh ckp kt i 'u jgn ngade2 leh x?' eleh mentg2 thts ur place u boleyh ckp besar laa.. i know u berguraw but i keet it serios coz i hate u! jgn harap u leh dpt farah... hahaha aku akan musnah kan hidup kaw.. u mmg xtaw kan how power gurl is.. even org sume ckp.. boys are stronger than girls,, mmg .. itu betul.. tp u dont know i have my own power towards u ok!! da aa... i hate u seriosly.. k bye..

by the time i tulis ni.. i was at kolej mwar...
at the end... terlepas gak rindu i kt sume kwn2 ku tercinta eventhough xleh lepak sgt sbb dorg ade tu la ade nilah... hurmm.. xpelaa...yg paling best nye,, i meet farah... hehehe
i pg um jumpa die... today i shopping byk gile n i puas hati laa... hehehe
so... tomorrow i will going back home....dedication 2 aleya, let go of cendawan please... td.. in the car mase kitorg baru balik dr the curve alea bersama bf die.. bf ke?? ntah hee~~~ mereka mempunyai sedikit perselisihan faham menyebabkan aleya tacink! kecink!! hhehehe
xpelaa.. just think about it wisely and make a right decision.. okeyh.. ape yg pasti i best datang sini even it just about two days only... xpelaa.. worth it gak.. plus i miss epul gile babi n x sbr nk balik jumpa die okeyh!! setakat ini shj dulu... my fren was beside me now.. best nye! haa not to forget.. aku kene rogol ngn puteri!!!!!!!!!waaaaaaaaaa omg~~~

my mom is the mom in the world

i know its long time i dont go back home....
its not because i marh sape or merajuk ngn mak or wut but bosan la balik umah,..
i xde langsung kwn kt umah.. ni la bile lepas upsr i merantau belanjar beribu batu jauh nya dari umah... then td my mom call sbb i kol die semalam xdpt.. die dh tido then arini die kol la i balik..
mak ckp la pasal abh.. looks like theres no one tahan ngn perangai die lagi n dad u have to be ready.. coz i wanna see u in court.. n the most thing yg i ske.. mak soh epul balik umah skali in this sem break... coz mom said epul lagi terer settle kan hal ni.. yes it is! thnks mak.. mmg epul x leh pisah pon n die pon br je ckp kt i cene la bile balik cuti sem nih..huhuhu... i pon x leh jauh2 ngn die even 1 day.. no wonder everyday kitorg akan jumpa.... kalau x jumpa i mesti x senang duduk...
paling lekeh jumpa pon gi makan same2.. janji jmpa.. hehehe

skenye~~~~

so conclusion.. two person i love the most in my life is mak n epul... my mom sporting gile kan?

friends or lover??

different people think in the different way.. am i?
so straight to the point are you people choose ur lover or ur friends if one day u have to choose between 'em??
some of them outside, they are really2 love their friend coz mostly esp boys la.. most of them membesar dengan kawan.. those yang have a family prob n dok asrama plak.. absolutely they grow up sorrounded wit friends.. rite??
until.. contoh.. one of them da de awek n he serios with this gurl.. of course la his time kene divide into two.. time with friends and times with gf.. so mmg pade peringkat awl nye.. gf akan amek mase yg lebihla kan? should his friends ni get jeleous n xnk lepak lagi ngn this guy.. coz this guy terlalu mementingkan awek... eyh.. hello... listen ok.. if u guys sendiri nnti ade awek n u guys sendiri ase la.. how to manage time.. n mestilaa nk yg terbaik untuk awek masing2 kan??
n u people if u r a very good friends u should understand laa...

ade some people yg mcm...

--terlalu mementingkan awek. so friend lantak korg.. sbb die pkir awek nk kawen n hidup selamanya n kwn sometimes makan kawan kan.,..

--terlalu mementingkan kawan sampai awek pon terbiar,.. ye ah, friends for everything..awek ni sambilan je... n2 theres a lot of girls nowadays cmpared to boys.. so hilang sorg leh cr lagi.. hilang kawan baik ssh bai... hurmmm

--pening x taw nk pilih kwn or awek.. pilih awek kwn perli2..'yelaa.. sume awek ko, jarang eyh ko lepak ngn kitorg skang.. alaa org mabuk bercinta la katekan...' kalau pilih kawan lak.. 'sampai hati awk! yelaa.. kwn awk je penting.. sy ni sape bg awk???''

so kesimpulannye mende ni mmg sendiri kene settle sendiri n depend on tht particular individu itu sendiri mcm mne nk menguruskannye n2 friends or awek.. u have to be very2 understanding ok! mende cm ni small matter je la babe... kalau jadikan issues jugak... mmg u guys seorg yg ske cr masalah n x cool lam menyetelkan prob...... kalau kwn bg ah pluang kt kwn korg nk manja2 lu ngn awek die n im very sure ia akan bertahan 2,3 bulan jer.. lepas tu korg lepak ah sampai lebam! n awek2 plak.. dh taw balak kaw ni member rmi cubela bg die peluang nk lepak ngn kwn kejp.. xyah ah nk berkepit slalu.. kalau u ase nk thn in 2 or 3 months je wat la prangai cm ni.. n after tht he will say good bye to you...

p/s...so people.. friends or lover???

he pampered me!!

seriously he bought this he bought tht to me. watever things that i want surely ill get it..
sometimes if i want particular thing pape je.. i got 2! heh~~ minggu ni je i dh abeh kan almost 1.5 K!! omg!!! are u insane reen??? gile kan? then td he also bought me a phone..gile! phone touch screen o2 atom ape tah..nape awk ikut je ape yg saye nk??hp yg before this i use pon die yg belikan.. so this is the second phone u gave me..
he said i deseverd all this? but why? he also said he wanna teach me ape tah.. hurmm pape pon u give me or not i syg u je kot... awk2.. u so weird... but papepon.. im happy n my decision moving here x de la upset me... hurmmm...

td i also bought heels... tht was my first heel yg tinggi gile cm tu.. before this kalau tinggi pon just wedges je.. xpela.. lagipon die yg pilihkan.. so pape jek.. hek** then i gi repair la my hair balik td...
seb baik la ok... then i gi pharmacy beli ubat for my ugly face ni..so nothing much today... i got period pain ni.. sakit~~~~=((

stupid hair.stupid charlie.my face ugly like shit!!

i hate my new hair.. guess wut? my hair turn straight balik.. bodoh!!!!
i byr mahal2 beli all of the stupid foxy curl yg mahal gile then when i take my bath after two days (cina botak tu soh aku mandi after 2 days) then after mandi je my hair turned stret balik.. what the stupid sallon.. u know wut before i did my hair i ask for his experience n2 he show me all of his certificate. so i believe him laa.. then mmg hasil nye not tht exactly wut i want..stupid bold head.. bengang betul!

then 3 days ago i kene charlie kt muka,.. sape2 yg x taw charlie tu ape u just search the internet then u guys bleh taw betape sial nye serangga tersebut.. those yg taw mmg taw laa cene akibatnye bile kene this knid of insect.. n my face hodoh sgt3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pedih taw,.. esok i nk gi klinik n i nk gi saman tht sallon... bodoh! i want back my money...
then i cm tensen sgt2.. with my hair n my face like this so i start crying la cm bese... arghhh..
then epul ckp she love me not because of my face..or even my hair.. but i know lelaki.. eventhough die ckp cm tu tp mesti la die nk tgk his future wife ni cntik.. cene ni... should i curl my hair or just remain stret?? i love my hair when its curl tp o donno how to take care of it... n2 bile curl x leh sikat.. i ske sikat rmbut.. i bukan nk rmbut curl yg keras tu.. arghh bodoh laa..
tensen betul....

hek**

last nite im goin out lagi ngn epul.. n2 aku shopping lagi.. wee~~~ my money tht day abis about almost 300 jugak laa.. so everything necessary or not i just bought it n i satisfied with that.. eventhough my money terbang melayang2.. doesnt matter.. mmg hidup perlu menghabiskan duit abah okeyh.. so i just assume all of tht is abah's money... and about 10 pm.. epul brought me to tht gurl ngn gado ngn i yg i ckp in my previos post tu just to see me n tht gurl settle all the prob tht we faced and she explain to me what had happened n obviosly mmg die salah pon.. treated two guys at the same time and playing around with my brother.. jgn main2 ngn abg2 aku! i love them okeyh! looks like mamak ske gile babi kt die.. so please make a right decision.. ko x nk ko blah.. x pyh lyn die lagi.. i dont want to hear any heart broken n stuff! esp bile kene kt sape2 yg related to me plus u know wut happen to mamak n his fren bile ko sendiri dh buat die cm tuh.. n absolutely epul will not let u go freely and peacefully ok! u know him kan? so aku maafkan kaw n aku mintk maaf if adelaa in this case aku tersalah n yes i admit, aku byk maki kaw coz u know me rite? u knw how when i hate somebody.. i dont hate u but i just want u realise all ur mistake n wht have u done to me to us! keyh...

stop babbling about emo and stuff.. guess what?? i have curl my hair okey! i love it but hasil die not really satisfied me.. thts not the hair tht i really want but then epul n kiss ckp i have to wait about 2 or 3 days so tht i can restyle it.. since i finished my school n i rebonded my hair like 3 times already and this was my first time la berambut curl so i really donno how to take care of it. i have to learn a lot from aleya seriosly.. hehe.. and lagi another two weeks i wanna go to shah alam.. hehe cene their expression erk when looking at my new style..

seriosly i have changed a lot! changing from emo+brutal+childish to gurl yg gurlish gile cm ema robert dlm cite wild child tu, gurl yg dlm cite house bunny, n i donno since when i dh jadi shopaholic gile babi and demand gile... pintu kereta pon i dh jarang bukak! so freeking demand kan?? yelaa my husband tu x gentleman langsung so i have to teach him laa.. hehehe padan muka! sape soh choose me! sorry taw kalau i too much.. heee~~ dulu i atlit kt sekolah n i a lil tomboy laa.. rmbut pendek n stuff.. i nye dress up pon cm dak2 emo, indie kadang2.. bile lepak ngn dak2 indie so i dress indie n bile lepak ngn geng2 i dress biase..before this i dress cm budak2 with the teddy n stuff but then since bile i pon x taw ive started to buy dress, blouses.. heels..make up,(sumpah i br start make up kot)perfume, kasut yg bunyi die tup tap tup tap sebatu leh dengar tu.. n many more laa.. why3????? im turning to be a woman.. duh***
u know wht why im changing so freeking obviosly? because i wanna look beautiful from his eyes, he likes such this kind of girl, so everything tht i have done i just for you! taw x gemok?? kalau x appreciate me.. i donno wht to say anymore.. tp2 i know, he changed a lot tho.. tu sume pon because of me.. n2 u turning to be a romantic, loving, caring, protective gile babi just for me also kan.. smpai perfume pon i yg choosed coz i yg smell u everyday.. huh~~ bahagia plak ku ase.. wee~~ hope it will last long... i nk flirt tu jgn mimpi laa.. i wont.. first time kot i being serios in relationship ni.. kadang2 i felt weird sbb yaa.. x penah kot serios2 nih.. hee~~ i love him la..damn much!

then my ex skandal dulu call me bile la i dh lupe he look at my pic kt lam myspace die ckp why i choose 'die'... x sesuai la ngn ila ape la.. n2 he said.. 'i ade six pack' n u surola ur bf tu diet..nk perli i la kan? wht i want to say to you is.. you babi! u ensem yes i admit but look at you! look at ur atitude! bahagia ke pompuan ngn u? i leh jamin laa.. u mmg x leh nk bahagia kan sesiapa.. n u think sendiri why gurl selalu x leh get along ngn u.. kapel putus kapel break. eventhough se ensem mne pon sesiape kalau u not gurl nye taste so get lost you asshole! go to hell you with ur six pack n stuff.. i hate it.. aku leh nmpk simbol neraka jahanam kt muka kaw with ur atitudes yg sebijik cm setan tuh... only god knows okeyh..n fyi, i love him damn much.. i terima die seadanya.. n i syg da way die skng.. n i x nk die tuka pape pon... u dont know us so u shut ur mouth up okeyh...

p/s.. im really damn happy now with my hubby.. thnks syg.. n i love my fren here
too...pecal,feek,qistina, azim

just wanna post sumthing before i have to go to english class tonite..
english class damn bored plus there's nothing to do and sir didnt teaching at all.. ye laa.. nk ajar ape lagi.. n2 katanya tonight we just watching a movie.. ape salahnye he just cancelled the class n just assume tht attendance is perfect.. sume org dtg.. bukan sape2 taw pon.. kitorg lagi ske n u sir leh rilek je layan awek kt umah.. kan3??

hey u know what.. i kwn ngn my lattest ex punyer awek! die sgt baik, lemah lembut and sangat difference from me.. tp2 sume org ckp she is just like me.. my face my behavior.. cume die lmbut n i kasar.. i like to make fren yg mcm die sbb sounds like she so understanding and opened.. x kesa pon i cite pape n she refer to me everytime she wanna ask bout him.. xpelaa.. i just telling her from my experiences sbb i nk die buat yg terbaik untuk my ex tu.. ye ah.. i dh buat dajal kt that guy.. x kn nk lepas tgn kot.. so i bg die go on ngn gurl yg better.. tp tu la.. byk persamaan antara i ngn die..
i ske ah kwn ngn die.. n2 she always tell me that tht guy cm tipu2 die... i dont know la bout u guys n i dont wht tht guys feel to this gurl tp i hope tht they happy together. plus, she can be a good fren tho...

tp yg i dont like to hear is my fren pon ckp n2 farah pon ckp he choose farah because of me.. because im just like her.. adeh.. he's a lil bit gile dulu when we broke up but then tu kan dh lame.. n i think i x de la serios sgt eventho die serios gile babi.. xpelaa.. u nk pilih die sbb i ke sbb ape2 ke lantak la kan tp i hope u dont play around with tht gurl.. i mean it seriosly.. k la dh lambat..farah, u just tell me wht happen and if anything yg u nk share ok.. syg u! k laa i nk bersiap.. nk gi klass.. daaaa~~~